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This evening, I went to the beach again. Ya, I am alone to there again. But this time, I did not bring along with pen and paper. I just went there to sit, to look at the view and those people around there. I walked and sat, sat and walked again.

I was damn so tired! Last night I slept at 4am and woke up at 7.30am in the morning due to I had a meeting in Butterworth. Then, in the middle of the meeting, my sister sent a message to me. She told me that there was a drama practise in the afternoon at Penang Kaikan. Damn! I thought that I had the chance to take a nap after I concentrated the whole morning in the meeting. Now, I had to change my plan. I had to rush to Penang Kaikan when I came back from Butterworth. And, tonight I had another meeting again. So, my whole Sunday was just meeting, meeting and meeting!

After I came out from Penang Kaikan, I straight away drove to Tanjung Bungah beach. I knew that even if I went back to home, I also couldn’t sleep. So, just went to the place where I like, to give myself a break. I love beach! I really like it very much!

Without pen and paper, what I could do was just to sit quietly on the sand. Then, I called a friend. I was talking with her on phone for one hour. Once in awhile, I will call her because we hardly meet and she is in Johor now. I just told her the things happened to me in the past half year and what problems I had faced recently.

Then, she just asked me to go back quickly because the sky was going to dark soon. Just as usual, like other friends whom called me when they notice that I was alone in the beach:” Faster go back! It is very dangerous for you to stay at that place alone!” What I will answer them is:” Ya la, I will.” Then, I will continue to say:” Don’t worry, no one will catch me because I am not enough pretty.”

Later on, I continued to stay at there until 8.30pm only I went back. At that time, the sky was dark, almost everyone went back. The sea and the sand became two in one. It was really quiet. What I could hear was just the waves sound.

It was dinner time. But I really had no appetite to eat. So, I just went to my friend’s Japanese restaurant to buy a roll of maki. My friend’s mom asked me:” How come did not see you for long time?” I just answered:” I was very busy.” But, am I? Then she said again:” You become so pretty now.” I just smiled and quickly disappeared from the restaurant. There were so many customers at that moment and she said out with loudly tone. Oh my god!

I am still the same. When I reached home, I was alone again. I was eating my maki, checking my e-mail and updating my blog. The house is damn quiet. But I knew that it is time to offline because I still have one more meeting to go.

I know I have to change my unhealthy lifestyle. But, I do not know what happen to myself. I really don’t like to go home. I rather myself to hang out with friends until midnight. A friend told me:” Just come back to your destination after you had made your decision.” I know. I know I have to come back. I know I must come back. I have no other choices. Just can go forward and farer…

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